[One Thousand Characters a Day] Nocheonmyeong, Seolya Sanchaek
After dinner, snowflakes suddenly begin to flutter. I am suddenly drawn by the temptation to go outside. I pull my scarf tightly over my head and inevitably step out.
I do not want to visit anyone’s house tonight. Nor do I wish to meet any friend. I feel that simply walking endlessly while facing this snow is the only rest I need. I want to keep walking endlessly in this snow.
A snowy night is a night when I receive communion. The snow now covers the earth in white, and my shoes briefly slip on the ground. Countless people pass me by, and I pass them as well, yet why do I feel as if I am walking alone across the snowy plains of Siberia?
Every time the streetlights brilliantly reflect the swirling snow, I pull my scarf tighter.
Though I feel I should return home now, my feet do not move toward home.
The sound of train wheels is unusually loud. Where might the train be heading at this hour? A gloomy train compartment comes to mind. The colorful lives seated inside it?the ones carrying joy and the ones carrying sorrow?traveling through the night, breaking through the darkness. I recall the unexpected telegram I received one evening last January, which led me to leave and ultimately engraved a sad memory in my heart. The sound of the night train now chills me to the bone.
Occasionally, a snowflake strikes my cheek. No one would know that inside my quietly walking heart, an indelible sorrow and terrifying loneliness struggle so fiercely that I can hardly endure it.
Thus, perhaps humans are eternally lonely beings. From a brightly lit window of some house, the sound of pounding cloth seeps out.
I see that the beautiful affection of a woman flows here as well. There is a woman smoothing clothes to show gentle care, and someone beating the quilt while patrolling as a police officer tonight. As long as these exist, I too must return home with a beautiful heart.
With snow whitened on my head like a weary traveler, I quietly knock on my door. Everything is clean and quiet for this sacred snowy night. Entering a room without a single flower, my presence like a shadow is as sorrowful as a mourning band.
Outside the window, snow continues to fall softly. Thinking that the footprints I left on the silent streets will be covered and erased by the white snow, I lie down quietly. Setting a ceiling of gray and pink, I carve the wood of the mouse I hold tonight, and I carve my own heart.
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