[Stones and Stories] Into the Solitary Cell of Pain

When one becomes deeply immersed in the game of Go, there comes a moment when they enter the "solitary cell of suffering." This is the result of becoming excessively absorbed in the competition. When the desire to win becomes overwhelming, one faces a moment where the boundaries of their humanity are tested. A chilling instinct, once hidden behind a calm expression, rears its head.

When the desire to seize another's territory crosses the line of reason, the darker side of the self emerges. It is a face of oneself previously unknown. The player transforms into a ruthless competitor, pushing the opponent to the limit and launching brutal attacks. Even though it might seem natural to show mercy at the sight of a suffering opponent, the will to block even the smallest 1% chance of their survival leads to the most aggressive moves. The opponent struggles desperately, but ultimately cannot escape the player's grasp. If, in witnessing this, a subtle sense of pleasure arises, it is a sign that one has already reached the threshold of the solitary cell of suffering.

When one begins to regard the act of deciding the fate of life and death as trivial, the situation becomes even more dangerous. It is the choice to walk into a place where sunlight does not reach. The damp, solidified lumps clinging to the moisture-soaked walls are not easily shaken off. Perhaps they are the echoes of despair emitted by the opponent.

As unpleasant memories accumulate, that lump eventually becomes a part of oneself. Instead of the pleasure of victory, only the shadow of regret lingers in the mind. Becoming the winner does not mean the warm sunlight of spring awaits them.

Even in a game of Go, desire threatens one's humanity. How much more so in war, which takes lives? We live in an era where taking a human life is treated like a scene in a game. Shock and terror hide behind the mask of familiarity, their claws concealed. As excessive stimulation is repeated, people become increasingly numb to the horrors of war. In the meantime, the shadow of despair stretches across both space and time. This is why witnessing scenes of lost humanity in the Middle East leaves us uneasy.

Choices made without controlling desire give rise to new lumps of pain. Tears, sorrow, and the echoes of despair all begin from a single decision. The slight pressure of a finger pressing a single button—do they realize how much additional weight of sorrow that tiny movement brings into the world?

After the "storm of greed" carried by massive missiles engulfed an elementary school in Iran, the children who once laughed and chattered were buried in the ashes. Before they had even grown accustomed to the pencils in their small hands, the children were pushed to the edge of farewell. At the place where their innocent smiles once were, only the lump of tears remains. The dry, emotionless word "misfire" cannot erase the karmic consequences of such wrongdoing.

We live in a barbaric era where taking someone's life has become routine. Some commit these crimes, while others turn away from the horrors. Politics, ideology, and religion are used as convincing justifications, but in the end, only heartbreaking cries remain. The wounds are passed down, and the indelible lumps of pain seep into all of us living in this era.

The "dust of the Middle East," born of war, will eventually settle. But the wounds of pain do not simply disappear with the passage of time. Will there ever come a day when the lump of despair, which we desperately wish to shake off, is gone and faith in peace spreads again? The solitary cell of suffering has already taken root in a corner of our hearts in this era. The lingering echo of unstoppable sorrow is cast long over our own spring.

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